Begging

What are you begging for in life?  I mean, truely honestly begging for when you do something.  Whenever you're tired, upset, angry, or sad; whenever you turn to God and just start begging for His help: What are you begging for?
What I usually beg for is control.  I beg that I will have control over my emotions, my kids, my house, and more.  But usually, when I get so tired of just praying, what I beg for is for me to be in control.
But what is at the heart of it?  I should be begging for Jesus.  I was thinking about this the other day while watching Beth Moore, and thought:  what happens when I look further into the question? 
Beth Moore asked the question, "what are you begging for in life?"  But then she also asked "What is it your soul is begging for from Christ?"
You see, even though I might be begging for me to be in control, after looking hard inside myself for the answer to the second question I realized something.  I realized what my soul is begging for from Christ is that He takes control of the situation.  Cause that's what I really need.  I have to realize God is the one in control, not me, and I can always rely on Him. 
This little epiphany caught me by surprise.  When asked the first question, the word "control" jumped in my mind as if there was no questioning that answer.  Naturally, I had a self-absorbed moment where I thought "Yeah, I do beg for control in life."  It's true, I do.
But when asked the second question, "control" popped up again.  And that's when I really thought about it.  What my soul is begging and yearning for is Christ, and His control over a situation.
What about you?